hehe Well what can I say. We've known each other for quite a long time now and I still feel the same way about you as when I fell in love with you. We've got into the ups and downs that any relationship has and I still come to the same conclusion everytime I wake up beside you and just look at you... I love you and always will. :) We have our disagreements.. but yanno what.. it would be weird if we didn't... it would get boring. Im not saying I like to fight lol.. just saying its normal.. and we get passed it and move on. I am happier now more then I've ever been and its all cuz of you.
I am sorry for doing stupid things.. and hurting you in moments of pure foolishness. Know I love you and I only want the best for you. I can't wait to see what comes next for us.. everything, the good and the bad. All I know is I want to do this with you.. this thing we call life.

<3 you babe

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makes me smile

She makes me smile even when Im feeling down. She is the light that brightens my dark and dreary days. Whenever Im feeling down she always does her best to bring me out of it and she never fails to make me smile whenever I need it the most. Life seems so hard sometime but with her in my life it makes it a lil easier to get through. She uncomplicates the complicated and helps me breathe whenever I feel I can't do it myself.

No one seems to want to help me.. I need a change in my life.. I need to make something of it.. instead of helping me it almost seems like everyone would rather hold me back. Doesn't make sense to me. I would think instead of leeching off the system they would rather see me independent and well off.. but they just keep saying no to this and that. Everytime I come up with a plan to get my life on track.. someone always makes me modify it. But if they want me to leech off the system for the rest of my life... thats their choice. But Im trying to be optimistic.. someone is going to want to see me succeed.. the way Sarah does. Someone is going to help! :)

she's amazing

I don't know what I would do without her. Shes amazing.. helpful.. thoughtful. She makes me smile whenever I need one. I don't know what I'd do without her..especially this week. When my own family won't even lift a finger to help me move Sarah has come through with aces each time I needed her help. She doesnt' even do it cuz I ask her..she does it cuz she wants to.. cuz she sees I need the help and offers herself to help me. Love her so much.. she amazes me :) She's so selfless its not even funny, she's just there cuz she wants to be. My family make up excuses and whine about why they aren't helping.. Sarah is a busy girl.. she works her butt off all day then past few days has come home and helped me move. wow.. :)

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So things are coming to a head. The people that never new about her and I are starting to find out. And they're just gonna have to get used to it. K and her had, I dunno, a moment I guess I'll call it, last night. But each time anything comes up all that matters to me, and I always find out this, that shes been thinking of me. I know some people would freak out, for some it might even be the end of things but sh was with K for so long that things probably just seemed familiar.. familiar can be safe sometimes. With me she doesn't know exactly what shes getting, its scary sometimes but even still in the end she chooses me. How can I be mad at that? Thats all I want is for her to choose me, not becuz its some kind of contest but becuz I love her and want to be with her. I honestly don't think something like last night will happen again either. I think they both came to the realization that its really over between them. Im not saying that is going to make me happy cuz I know it won't make her happy at first. All I can do is be there for her and I know in the end shes going to be happier cuz Im going to do everything I can to see that she is. Which really isn't all that hard becuz we make each other happy. How can we go wrong? :)
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k so I've kinda forgotten that I was gonna keep up with this thing. LOL ah well Im here once again and I'd like to talk some more about my most favorite person in the whole wide world.. Sarah. Ever since I've met her she's been nothing but the smile on my face each and everyday. Shes the most amazing person I know. Her heart is so big I don't know how she keeps it in her chest. Even when shes down I know its becuz she's thinkin about someone else and stuff that they're going through and worrying about them and not herself. Im sure she worries about herself too but I know the things that are bugging her the most are the situations that are troubling her family and friends.

- Everyone goes through ups and downs... you have to get past the bad stuff to find the good stuff. But once you are there you realize all the bad stuff is so small compared to the goodness in life. The bads might seem long while you're in'em.. but once you're out of them it seemed like such a short period of time. Look for the good in life even when you're down and the bad things won't even be a memory soon enough.

I know when we're together again tonight things will seem alright.. and I'll smile at you.. and you'll know you put that smile there.. and you'll smile for me. Just wait and see..

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I've deleted old posts, I'm making a fresh start with the blog thing with a new outlook on life. It's all due to MY Sarah. The one contstant in my life that always seems to make me smile, even when I don't feel like theres a smile to give.
I'm not saying everything is now perfect.. but Sarah is. It still saddens me how people can't see us together simply because of my physical limitations. It also saddens me that people think that she'd just be with me because she feels sorry for me and wants to take care of me. Feel sorry for me?.. Hell no she doesn't lol. She pushes me to my limits in what I can and can't do. She doesn't baby me like some people have in my life. She's an amazing woman that is pushing me to be everything I can be and more. Something I've needed in my life as of late. Does she want to take care of me?.. I hope so.. I hope that she wants to see me healthy and happy.. I hope that she'll do everything she can to make me happy.. as I will do the same for her. I want her to be everything she can be and more and i want her to be happier then she ever has before.. yes I want her to take care of me..and I want to take care of her. If people think that is a reason against a relationship.. I think they have it backwards.
Sarah and I fit so well together. We laugh at the same things our sense of humour is very similar. We care about the same things in life and both want to succeed. We both have the same passion for life and people.. we hate to see people hurting and will do everythign we can to help someone out in a bad situation.
When we love to spend our time together. Even when we're not doing anything we're happy to just be together. I think when you find that one person whos eyes you can get lost in and just be content.. thats the person you are meant to be with.
People can say anything they want.. give any reason they want about why we shouldn't be together. But it doesn't matter.. physical.. pyschological.. any reason someone wants to give about why we shouldn't be together won't matter to us. I know how Sarah feels about me.. even if people think they know what she herself is thinking.. they don't have any idea. We know each other inside and out.. even in the relatively short period of time we've known each other.. it feels like its been forever. I know she is happy with me.. and I am completely.. entirely happy with her. How we feel about each other is all that matters.. and what anyone else thinks they know.. doesn't matter.
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